The Hidden Me

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There is an outer me that everyone who meets me sees. I get to choose how I present that me to the world. What clothes I wear, whether I smile or laugh or not, I can put on the best face possible to make good impressions, I can pretend to be someone that I’m really not. In a way the outer me is an actor playing the role that I have chosen on the world’s stage. I play the part and even get caught up sometimes thinking that it is real. Most people who meet me only see the outer me. They may think that they know me, but they have only met the outer me. They have seen the window dressing that I have carefully arranged. They see the wrapper without ever tasting the food on the inside. They have but seen the image that I have presented.

 

There is also an inner me that is hidden from the rest of the world. This is the real me that I have to live with. I know the truth about who I really am. The inner me is shy to allow people to see him, “Will they like me? Will they accept me as I am? Will they reject me? Will I be hurt again from those who I allow to see me as I really am? Should I take a chance with this person and allow them to see me as I am?” These are some of the questions that I ask myself. There is an inner dialogue that is continually going on inside my head. Sometimes I wonder if I know the real me at all.

 

Many people I know do not want to face the real person who they are on the inside. They do not like to be left alone with their thoughts. They continually play music, watch TV, are on the internet, or they are with other people. All this is an attempt to not have to be alone with themselves, that is, the real person that they are on the inside. They stay BUSY, BUSY, BUSY all of the time in order to not be faced with the person on the inside. They only have a passing knowledge of their inner self without ever getting to know who that person really is. Is it that they do not like who they really are? Are they afraid of this person? Why don’t they like their own thoughts?

 

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I have found that I like being the real me. I used to hate this person, but I am now comfortable with myself and enjoy my own company. I now like the person that I am. This opens up a whole new way of looking at life. For no longer do I hide the real inner me with the outward window dressing and play-acting, but I desire for the world to meet this person that I am happy being. I have become transparent allowing people to see who I really am. I am no longer afraid  of being hurt, for I have also become strong. I can display all of my inner qualities for all to see without shame or remorse. In a very humble way I am proud of who I really am. I have learned to love myself for who I really am. I am best friends with ME.

 

I have labored long and hard to discover how to change and reform the inner me. I have taken care to fill the inner me with positive, uplifting, empowering, motivating, energizing, and spiritual thoughts. These thoughts have changed me from the “me” that I hated and despised, to the “new me” that I love and am best friends with. The Book of Proverbs says, “For as a man thinks in his heart, so is he.” I have carefully changed the thoughts that I think and have successfully changed who I am.

 

Sadly many people who I have known for many years still remember the old me, and refuse to take the time to get to know the new me. To them I will always be the old man that they remember. I agree with them too. I hate and despise that old man too. I wouldn’t allow him in my house much less ever trust him or become friends with him. The old man deserved to die a painful death, and I have killed him, and he is no more. It required that I learn the thoughts of God to learn how to do that. That is indeed the subject of the entire Bible, parts of which are used and recognized by numerous religions. The main subject is redemption, that is, to change the old man or woman into a new man or woman. I have found that to be real and personal and not religious at all. I find it to be natural and normal. Anyways I won’t argue with success for I know it works by experiencing it myself.

 

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The new me is kind, generous, loving, caring, full of good deeds, living for others and not just myself. The new me loves nature and beauty in all the forms that it comes in. He loves to meditate and to internalize positive new thoughts that will change him even more for the better. The attitude of the new me is to “take me or leave me based on who I truly am”, and “if you choose to cast me aside, that is your loss and decision, not mine”. I am at peace being who I truly am on the inside. The burden has been lifted and my chains are gone. I am as a lost child or pet who has returned home. I now have confidence and I trust myself.

 

The secret to winning with people is to be someone that you yourself are comfortable with. Quit being uncomfortable in your own skin. Learn the secrets of change and renewal. You too can put to death the old person that you despise and are ashamed of, and see a birth take place of a brand-new you. I witnessed this miracle inside of myself and I know that it is available to you and to anyone who wants it. It is one of the wonders of life. Just take the time to learn the secrets of how it is done. Life is fair to all, that is, to all who learn the laws that govern life and apply them to their own lives, and learn to live in harmony with these laws. Those who do not do this will have the mistaken belief that life isn’t fair. It is ignorance that binds and enslaves the human race.

 

So the inner me is clearly seen to all who wish to see him. He will come out in the words that I write and the counsel that I give. In all the words that I write you will find me hiding and also unveiled. I am as a shining light set on a hill clearly seen by all who care to look. I am not ashamed of him, I respect and love this new me. I humbly and proudly present him to you and to everyone else. I am now comfortable in my own skin. I wish this same blessing to all you who read these words. Shalom my friends.

 

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